Elementary Madness

The following stories you will be joining me in my elementary days, along with a personal journal entry where I think back about elementary in seventh grade. In this journal entry I struggled with bullying, the control of my first blackouts, disassociation, violence, and what is was like with my first experience with child therapy.

A DISCLAIMER: along with my experience in child therapy, there will be a discussion mentioning sexual assault. Along with it being divided into three parts, for now part one and part two will be available to read.

We all experience our early days in school differently but fair warning these happen to be some of my toughest days, or years, Little me had to endure a lot growing up, sometimes I thought that I was deserving of all the things that happened to me because I was made out to believe I would always be a horrible person. I know now it wasn’t fair but I didn’t understand things then, so how could I have known. The world was so different in those times compared to todays times. In todays world everything's more sensitive and —uh? caring I guess I can say. After all there's more response and more response for peoples well being. Also, if you have any younger siblings or anything please take the time to check on them, and hopefully enough they don't go through such tough days or bullying. Sit down with them and talk and hopefully they open up and tell you how their little lives. Cause experiencing bullying starting from kinder all through elementary to fifth grade, is not only exhausting but damaging, I honestly don’t know how I had held on, but I’m glad I did, cause from all the pain and sadness and numbing I’ve come to learn and still experience, I somehow still smile, love, and continue to hope, despite having easily shut it and cut it all off for a long time period. So hopefully enough you enjoy your read and look forward to the happy stories after these few sad ones.

Now fasten your seat belts the ride is about to begin.

-S